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1. the introduction
instrumental. written and performed by Clint Carney
2. momentary absolution
it took me almost two days to realize I had a gun in my mouth
for you girl, I break all the rules
for you I sing to myself
let it rain down from the ceiling with my brains
let it rain down
let it rain down on you
I want to be devoid of consequence
want nothing to matter but this moment
and this taste of this life
and this night
and hope to bring no closure
apply the pressure
stop the bleeding
but can't suffocate the dream
it took me no time at all to recognize your disappointment
just you girl, I never wanted more
for you I sing to myself
let all the bad things I've done in my past be absolved in this moment
let all the things I've done in my past be absolved for you
It took me twice as long to realize you were not thinking of me
as it did for me to get over myself
for you girl, I dance in silence
for you I'll silence myself
for in this moment when we share our eyes
there is no truth
and you would never listen to my voice
in this moment let us realize
in this moment when we share our eyes
let us realize the truth
3. glass
I possess no mementos of the time we spent together
whether that's for the better, we best not say
so let's stare at the holes in the back of our heads
through the holes in our hands that we fold to pray
and pretend there is something to mend
and then we can admit why we do or we don't give a shit
I could say I never cared
and I could say I never tried
if that would bring you to the place
where you could be the happiest
I hope that's far away from here
there's no room left by my side
there is no void that you could fill
and I want nothing more from you
you knew all of this would pass
this whole god damned world wasn't built to last
you knew all of this would pass
this whole world is made of glass
there is no time like the present to predict the past
you're so clever, you saw right through
everything that we all knew
but it's all new to you so "fuck it"
just dissolve into your apathetic anthem
and expect the empathy to flow
so you can grow to nothing
while we fertilize your fears
by granting you acceptance
one more year of mediocrity
and that's good enough to get you through
but that's not good enough for me
and I could say I never cared
and I could say I never tried...
4. indifference
written and performed by Clint Carney. backing vocals by Ted Phelps.
if I touched you as you were falling from the sky
it was an accident
I only wanted a front-row seat to watch you hit the earth
and the reality of it all is
I am not the only one like this
and if you turn your back on me
you will still face me
and neither of us will care
if you smile or if you run away
this is the time when I don't care
just let it go
don't ask questions
life will happen regardless
and if I touched you as you were falling from the sky
it was an accident
I only wanted a front row seat to watch you hit the earth
I hope it hurts when you are falling
crushes you that I'm not calling
never coming back
all alone
indifference
I want to give it back to you
I hope it hurts when you are falling
crushes you that I'm not calling
all alone
indifference
I want to give it back
I want to give it back to you
5. to be nothing
it's hard to see why life was set to be this way
is this the reward I've worked for
is this the result of choices I have made
or does life chose itself for me
predestined to be nothing
predestined for so much of random hell
we might as well not try
for things they fall so heavy all the time
come crashing down
now what has lead me to this point
or am I just a victim of myself
in all complexities of simplicity
is this just karma
6. halo
a trip down to the street where my halo fell
will tell you all you'd care to know about me
a passage through a lifetime
in relative terms I've already died
now my hope can't stay afloat on it's own
she's praying still she'll die alone
and I can't own my face like this
it's really not me, I swear to god
my real identity could crush a thousand "me"s
with just the flick of a halo
the tick that tells you I'm nervous
you deserve this
what did you find in that dark street
seeped into pavement so discreet
a swept up dream
a pile of glass
and everything slows down too fast for me
for me
that's what you'd care to know
and throw yourself in front of my face
covered with your lame embrace
and tell yourself you never knew
the things in life that I've been through
just tell yourself you never knew
what I've been through
7. would have killed
written and performed by Clint Carney. backing vocals by Ted Phelps.
and you know what I know
why would you think to do this to me
a reason so simple
you could never dream the answer
if we're so different from ourselves
could I have seen this inner you
and touched its face for ever a brief moment
and standing back, now so detached from you
I realize why you didn't want me there
I would have killed if just this one time
time was on our side
and even when we walk away
you would have cared that I tried
and I had so much left to tell you
so many pieces left to place
but now the puzzle fell apart
to just the shadow of your face
I would have killed for the last chance
would have bled a thousand miles
through the thorns that line the path
just to kneel beside you as you were collapsing
and holding both hands
I could say I was still there
it's killing me
but I'm still here
8. premeditated
he didn't set up the rhyme with meaningless words
as you predicted, or assumed
everything was calculated
every words had purpose
just not always on the surface
but you couldn't look below
life is fast when you're shallow
but for some of us it moves too slow
he has entire conversations with many different people
but they never leave his paper
there are books of lost intentions
and premeditated action
a prediction for your equal and opposite
how accurate
how frightening
how frightening
though the rhyme was not set up
and the words fell on your surface
the painting was so perfect
and now everybody knows
so shallow
so far below
and everybody knows
9. all that now has left your reach
she says you'll regret this
ten years down the line
in the same way that she now feels the sting
from the void of the spark that she brought to my eye
and only now do I think she's right
though ten years haven't passed
I can feel it in your subtle glance
just a ghost of a question
taking residence in your mind
what would life have been
where would we have been
and I could have told you then
but I won't tell you now
there's nothing left to learn from this
there's no one left to burn for this
there's nowhere we can bring ourselves
that won't reflect the place we left
we hope in time the world goes blind
the stars shut down yet we still find
there's nowhere we can show our face
still scarred yet no one else will burn
time has severed our connection
you don't even know my smile
you can't even read my eyes
and she says you'll realize this
as she won't admit she has
all these things we could have seen
all that now has left your reach
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We returned from
our North American tour in 2004, to find that local director, Monica
Daniel, had shot a video for "All That Now Has Left Your Reach." We
liked it so much that we decided to make it available for download.
Click the following link to check it out. music
video
Currently there are
no "official" system syn music videos... but be patient. There will be
soon.
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10. tracing veins
I take nothing from this
I walk away holding air
just barely in my lungs
aspirating blood
from choking on these memories of fantasies
that there will be a light for me
there will be no light in this hollow
there will be no voice for me to follow
past that damage and regret
past the fire I could not set
to tell myself that I'm alive
give me a reason to survive
what does it matter now
if this will ever happen
why would you even care
that I have sunk so low
what does it matter now
if I won't live to see this
why would you even care
when I'm not there to burden you with guilt
tracing veins upon my skin
and holding in my every scream to just a whisper
choked back to just a ghost of a real emotion
and everything's inside
boiling just behind my eyes
everything's inside
boiling just behind my eyes
but they're too dry to open
and you're too blind to notice
but what does it matter now
11. abrasion collar
what did you expect me to say
did you think this would end your way
like I'd ever let you leave
without a scar
did you really think that I would
convince myself that I should
make a wish upon your dying star
I have seen the light falling from the sky
and I will see the tears streaming from your eyes
and I will have no mercy
my god, I will have no mercy
in the darkness of the light
in the shelter of your frozen night
in the place that only we have been
in this all too human mask of "sin"
I never wanted to be more than what I asked of you
you knew it would end this way
in the darkness of the light
in the shelter of your frozen night
in the place that only we have been
in this all too human mask of "sin"
you read in between the lines that only you had seen
you knew it would end this way
don't waste the hours of this day
praying everything will stay
like you give anyone a reason to live
their consolation isn't true
you know half the blame falls on you
and you can take
but you won't give
I have seen the sun falling from the sky
and I will see the tears streaming from your eyes
and I will have no mercy
my god, I will have no mercy
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